now. really it is now.

Hi there,

so, i'm still alive. I'm a survivor.

did you notice i've been backdating posts and trying to fill in a gap the size of November?
Well sure its kind of futile, but I prefer it that way than having a gap in my history recorded forever or for however long it is that computers are going to last...

anyway, this post right now, its real time.
that GIF ^ that's me right now, well not right now, but like 10 minutes ago, maybe 20 minutes, max.

Its been hard times at Bissoux HQ for a while now and this time yesterday I was pitifully sad and sobbing onto my emergency BFF iphone chat, but LOOK AT ME NOW! photobooth ! GIFs ! blog posts that aren't 20 days late !

and tomorrow i'm going to get up, work really hard at not being sad, work really hard (at doing work), backdate some more blogposts to fill in that November gap (revel in the fact that many of them will be ikemen themed) and run headlong into my future hopes + dreams with arms outstretched and a sparkling smile on my face ... or maybe i'll just get some pancakes or something,
but that'll be a nice start right? small steps.

and guess what?

I've decided that December isn't canceled after all.

[ Although its still going to be tough so if you should see me around then PLEASE BRING : tissues / hugs / love / help / winter layers / a sympathetic ear / consolation / puppies / pancakes / Gackt photobooks / good advice / optimism / potential suitors etc.

DO NOT BRING : romantic comedies / news about weddings, engagements or babies / people who met their significant others on Tumblr.

thanks ~~~ ]

P.S 

It's been a year and now so i'm over my unspoken vow (out of courtesy and conflict I suppose) and ambiguous reference to my own heartbreak. 

My heart is still broken, and from now on, if I feel like talking about it, then I might. 
or I might not, you know...    
I'm really hoping the potential of cathartic healing will outweigh any awkward retrospectives I will have at future points...

so, 明日ね 　...


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